Silent Lucidity


-x-o-x-Accidentally in Love-x-o-x-

By the time the fireworks finished, Bella and I were stretched out on the blanket side by side. We held hands, and our legs and feet tangled, making sandy paths with our toes on each others skin.

We talked quietly as the beach emptied out. She told me about Maggie cornering her in the kitchen and my mother swooping in to her rescue.

“Wait, what? Esme is not a superhero!”

“She is!” Bella laughed. “She’s like… Wonder Vodka Woman. Vodka is her truth serum.”

I laughed loudly, the sound echoing down the beach. “I thought her truth serum was her mom look. She can wield that shit through telephone lines, I swear to God.”

She giggled and rolled her eyes. “Your mom is great.”

We were alone, on a deserted beach in the moonlight, and Bella was gorgeous. There was never going to be a right time for us, but fighting my attraction to her was a losing battle. I shifted closer, taking her in my arms and whispering in her ear, “Can we stop talking about my mother?”

My hand found it’s way into her hair, and I placed gentle kisses on her neck.

She tilted her head, giving me better access. “Mm, what did you want to talk about?”

I trailed my nose along her jaw before kissing the corner of her mouth. “Who said I wanted to talk?”

“Then shut up,” she laughed, rolling onto her back and pulling me with her.

I was barely cognizant of the fact that we were out in the open as we made out on the beach. All I could think about was her. Her fingers in my hair. Her lips on my skin. Her taste in my mouth. Her breasts that fit perfectly in my hand.

She felt incredible beneath me. We kissed and touched, whispered and laughed. I had no idea how long we fooled around, but it seemed like forever. Eventually, she sighed and cupped my cheeks as she peppered my face with light kisses. I tightened my arms around her, and she snuggled against me.

I was beginning to think we should head back to Riley’s house when I heard a voice on the beach. The sound of the waves made it difficult to hear, but as I listened I realized someone was calling my name.

“Edward?” It sounded like my sister, but I had no idea what she wanted.



“Bueller,” Bella mumbled.

I laughed as I stood before turning to offer her a hand up. “I think we’ve been found.”

“There you are!” Alice called, breathing a little heavy as she and Jasper got closer. They stood, arm in arm, and she grinned at us, teasing. “Jeeze, hide much? We’ve been calling your name for five minutes.”

“Sorry,” I glanced at Bella, “we were distracted.”

Bella blushed, and I put my arm around her, tucking her into my side.

“Speaking of distractions,” Jasper laughed.

“Yes, exactly!” Alice nodded. “We need you to take mom and dad home.”

“What?” She looked excited, but I had no idea what distractions had to do my parents.

“When we came to get you Esme was telling telling Randall’s girlfriend about her pregnancy cravings.”

“She isn’t even pregnant,” Jasper laughed.

“I know, right?” Alice laughed. “Anyway, mom was talking about babies and dad was just sipping scotch and listening.”

“Is that his tell?” Bella whispered.

I grinned and nodded. “Yeah, he usually keeps her in line, but when Carlisle stops trying to act as her filter he’s had too much himself.”

“We should go.” She spoke quickly, as if we should hurry, but her shoulders shook, and I realized she was stifling laughter.


“Wonder Vodka Woman is in trouble,” she giggled.

She was ridiculous, but I loved it. I bent and grabbed our blanket and gave it a shake. I looked at my sister as I draped it over my arm.

“And why do we need to take them home?”

“Well,” Alice said, stretching out the word. “Rose and Em have already put the kids to bed in a guest room so they’re going to stay here. Jazz and I are going to Talkhouse to see a band. So you should take them home and put them to bed. You know,” she giggled, “in their room, on the first floor.”

It had taken me about a second to understand what she was saying. If Bella and I took my parents home, we would have the entire second floor of the house to ourselves—for hours.

“I see.” I smiled and started pulling Bella towards the house.

Bella bit her lip trying to hide her smile as she tried to keep up. Alice and Jasper had burst out laughing. We all but ran up the beach, leaving them behind us.

“Don’t stop to talk to anyone, we’ll never get out of here,” I whispered as we climbed the steps to the deck.

“We have to,” she laughed. “We have to say goodbye.”

“Ry will understand.” Shit, if he knew the whole story he would have told us to leave hours ago to have my grandparent’s entire beach house to ourselves.

Bella’s hand was in mine as I led her around the pool. There were ten or fifteen people still milling around outside, and I could see a few more people in the living room. My parents sat together on a bench seat on the far side of the deck. My father looked out towards the ocean, while Esme was turned to the side, still talking to Randall’s girlfriend, Mary. Randall sat beside her, doing something with his phone.

“Carlisle,” Bella said quietly when we stood beside them, and she saw the vacant look in his eyes. “Would you like a ride home?”

His face brightened when he recognized her. Esme hiccupped, and he laughed.

“That’s a great idea!” He nodded before putting a hand on my mother’s thigh, “Edward and Bella are offering to drive us home.”

She ignored him and continued talking. “And no one tells you that you’ll—hiccup—have to push so hard you’ll have a bowel movement on the delivery table… Carlisle didn’t even warn me!”

“Excuse me,” I said, stepping forward and praying that she’d stop talking before I heard anything more disgusting. I knew I needed to play my cards carefully if I wanted her to come along with us. If she got defensive we would end up arguing, and I’d never get her to leave. “Mother, we’re going to head home. Walk us out?”

“Oh yes, of course.” She smiled at us then turned to my dad. “We should probably say our goodbyes as well, don’t you think, Carlisle?”

“Whenever you’re ready, dear,” he agreed, then winked at Bella with a grin. He was drunk and bored, but he was the master at managing my mother.

“It’s been lovely chatting, Mary, but it is getting late.”

Mary murmured her goodnight as my mother stood, wobbling slightly. I reached out to steady her, and she tucked her hand into my elbow. “Thank you, son.”

I rolled my eyes, calling goodbye to Randall and Mary over my shoulder and started to lead Esme into the house. I heard Bella and my father coming behind us, so I just kept moving.

Riley saw us from across the room, and his face broke into a grin. I raised my chin and acknowledged him, but we didn’t stop walking. He knew very well what was going on, having rescued unsuspecting partygoers from my mother before.

Momentum was the key to getting Esme into the car with us. We moved through the house saying quick goodnights but never slowed enough to stop and talk. She followed me outside and didn’t hesitate to climb in the car when I opened the rear passenger door.

I made my way to the driver’s seat and Carlisle and Bella were close behind. I grinned as my dad opened up the passenger door for Bella before getting in the back. Esme scooted closer to him, hiccupping and laughing as they spoke quietly.

It was late enough that there wasn’t much traffic and we made good time driving home. Bella and I were quiet in the front seat, holding hands and stealing glances at each other. Esme and Carlisle whispered for a few minutes, but she soon fell asleep and was snoring before we pulled in the driveway.

I parked the car and, as everyone else climbed out, I found myself frozen for a second, realizing what was about to happen. Me and Bella. Naked. Uninterrupted. Naked. I scrubbed my hands over my face, and our earlier conversation popped into my head.

Let’s stay engaged… I’m falling for you… Just think, by the time the wedding rolls around we’ll be madly in love.”

I was an idiot. That was the lamest pseudo proposal I’d ever heard. I owed her so much. Much more than that. After everything she had done for me, she deserved to be romanced—and loved. Love. I never imagined that I’d fall in love with her. I was beyond falling, but I was afraid to admit it.


Bella stood on the passenger side looking in at me, and I caught a glimpse of my parents as they walked up the front steps.

“Sorry, I was thinking.” I gave my head a slight shake and exited the car. I needed to get my shit together before she decided it, or I, wasn’t worth it.

We linked hands when we met in front of the car and made our way to the house. She leaned against me and sighed. “Does this feel weird?”

“What?” I looked down at her, unsure what she meant.

“This. It’s like we’re sneaking around to lose our virginity together or something. It seems kind of weird since we’re following your parents into the house.”

I laughed as I opened the front door. She had a point. I went in behind her and stopped, leaning against the wall in the entry. Our arms stretched between us before she returned to stand in front of me. I reached up, and she watched as I traced the neckline of her blouse with my finger while I struggled for words.

“What?” she whispered, wrapping her hand around mine, stopping it.

I pinched my nose, afraid of her answer. “Is it too weird?”

“What? No.” She laughed. “I didn’t mean it that way.”

She stepped closer, her hands cupping my face before they slid into my hair. I moaned as she scratched my scalp, and I dropped my head back against the wall. My hands found their way to her hips, my thumbs slipping into her waistband.

“It’s not too weird. When have we done anything normal, Edward?” She laughed again. “Let me ask you this. We have two more nights here, and a full day of traveling, are you going to be able to wait that long to be alone with me?”

“No, fuck. That’s not what I meant.” My hands slid from her waist down to her ass, and I pulled her against me. “I want you, now. I just… What you said. I thought… I didn’t know.”

“Stop thinking, Edward.”

She kissed me, and I felt every inch of her body pressed against mine. There wasn’t a chance in hell I could make it back to Seattle without touching her. Fucking her. And it was going to happen where we stood if we didn’t get to a bedroom. Soon.

I pushed at her shoulders, and she moved back, our lips a hair’s breadth apart. We were breathing hard, and I could only imagine that my eyes looked exactly like hers—hooded, dark, and full of desire.


She nodded and took another step back, her eyes still on mine.

I grabbed her hand again and led her to our room. The door had barely clicked closed when I reached for the hem of her shirt. Her hands were already on my fly, and our arms tangled before she paused long enough to let me pull her shirt over her head.

I wanted to kiss her, to lick every inch of her body, but she was still wearing too many clothes. She seemed to read my mind as she held my gaze while reaching behind her back to take off her bra. I followed her lead, kicking off my shoes and then the shorts that had pooled around my ankles. My shirt was next, then my boxers. After weeks of build-up we were suddenly naked before each other, and I had no idea why we had waited so long.

She was beautiful, with creamy, porcelain skin and full, perfect breasts. Her long hair covered her shoulders, and a pink blush spread across her chest as it rose and fell in anticipation.

She bit her lip as her eyes swept over my body, but I couldn’t wait any longer and pulled her back into my arms. Our lips came together in a hard kiss, and our hands were frantic. It was like we couldn’t decide where to touch next. I certainly couldn’t. I wanted to touch her everywhere.

I hadn’t realized we were moving, but we must have been, because we bumped into the bed. It didn’t slow us down though. We parted just long enough to crawl onto the mattress, and then I was stretched out along side her, my cock just inches from where it wanted to be.

I slowly ran my hands down her body, stopping to caress her breasts and thumb her already tight nipples. She arched towards me, and I took one in my mouth, teasing it with my tongue, scraping it with my teeth. She moaned before bringing her hands to the back of my head, holding me in place.

I moved one hand between her legs, as well. She was hot and wet, and so responsive, as my fingers slid through her folds and around her clit. In no time she gasped my name and tugged at my hair so I kissed my way back to her lips. I kept my hand where it was, stroking her and teasing her entrance. She rocked her hips, trying to get me to press deeper.

“Oh fuck,” she whimpered, as I pushed two fingers into her.

I loved the sounds she made. Gasps and sighs. Whimpers and moans. And my name. Christ. The way she said my name, it was like a prayer.

I kissed her and crooked my fingers to rub against the spot that made her crazy. She was so fucking beautiful, stretched out on the bed with all of her blushing skin on display. She fisted the sheets as I stroked her until she cried out, arching against me and coming undone.

I couldn’t think about anything but getting inside her. I grabbed a condom from the nightstand and moved between her legs. She was still breathing hard as she licked her lips and watched me put it on.

I stretched above her, kissing her as I aligned our bodies. I rolled my hips, sliding along her center and teasing us both. She bit her lip and gave me a slight nod before I pushed into her. She was hot and tight. Being inside her was the sweetest fucking torture.

“Fuck, you feel good.”

She moaned and raised her hips up to meet mine. It was all the encouragement I needed. I pulled back and began to move, driving in and out of her in long strokes.

“Holy shit, Edward. I can’t… Please.”

I knew what she needed and gave her more. I thrust harder and faster, pounding into her until her body began to tighten around me. Her fingers dug into my ass, and her whole body stiffened. Her muscles clenched as she went over the edge, crying out my name.

That was what did it. She was impossibly tighter and wetter, but my name on her lips was the tipping point. I did this to her. I made her gasp and cry and thrash her head. She was mine. The orgasm that I’d been trying to hold off shot through me. I groaned and shoved into her one last time before I came long and hard.

Panting, I rolled to the side so I didn’t crush her, and she curled against me, stretching an arm over my chest. My heart still pounded against my ribs, and my breaths came quickly. After a minute or two, I got up to take care of the condom. When I came back to bed she returned to the same spot, tight against my side and her hand stroking across my collarbone.

“Mm… That was…” she trailed off, chuckling. “Wow.”

Thank God for the wow, or I would have been worried.

“It was,” I agreed, lightly trailing my fingers down her side. It had been by far the best sex I’d ever had.

The house was quiet except for the sound of our breathing mixed with the rhythmic push and pull of the ocean. We stayed like that for a while, gently touching and catching our breath. The silence was comfortable, like a warm blanket cocooning us from the world.

Eventually, she shifted in my arms, pulling me behind her so we were spooned together. My mind replayed the night in bits and pieces. But just like in the car, I kept going back to our earlier discussion, and my words made me cringe.


“Yeah?” Her voice was muffled and quiet, as if she was almost asleep.

It didn’t matter though, I couldn’t let her go to sleep without telling her what I was thinking. I tightened my arms around her and sighed.

“I know that what I said tonight… It wasn’t enough…”

She rolled over to face me before I could finish and put her finger over my lips.

“Edward, no.” She shook her head. “I knew what you meant.”

She may have understood, but she didn’t know what I meant. I swallowed hard and looked into her eyes. “Someday I’ll give you a real proposal. Down on one knee, a diamond—all of that. I promise.”

She took in a sharp breath and looked away, blinking. I could tell that I’d surprised her.

“I mean it.”

She nodded and brought her eyes back to mine. “I believe you.”

Somehow I hadn’t anticipated her response. I don’t know what I expected her to say, but her words were perfect. “Good.”

She nodded again and rolled over, clutching my arm as it draped across her chest. I sighed and closed my eyes, finally letting sleep begin to wash over me.

It was foggy after that, in that space between dreaming and awake, but I swore I heard her whisper, “And when you ask me, I’m going to say yes.”

-x-o-x-Accidentally in Love-x-o-x-


I have a feeling you either loved it or hated it – felt like it was too soon or not soon enough. IDK. I really liked how it played out. I’ll just be hiding somewhere. Thanks for reading – See you in two weeks!

What I’ve been reading:

Black Diamond by Dishie (WIP – but 44 chapters in it was on The Lemonade Stand last week and I got sucked in. Skiing and wine? I’m in.)

The black diamond slopes of Lake Tahoe are just what Bella needs to start living her life again after a painful breakup left a hole in her heart that work couldn’t fill. Will a handsome and charming skier also prove that her heart is ready for love too?

Innocent by Anna0804 (WIP – only 9 chapters posted, but it has pulled me in. I want to know what happened, and I want to see these two figure their shit out. LOL)

Bella’s life was a strict routine built to keep her from remembering the one that hurt her. And her life was full of people who were desperate for her to forget. Someone had spread a vicious lie about Bella that sent him away from her 5 years ago for what she thought was forever. What will she do when he returns to her life?


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